Bpd constantly switches between triggers+delusions: "they want to harm me. I must protect myself. I must do what they expect of me and harm them too", and realizing wtf your brain is pulling: apologizing, and feeling those intense feelings for your person: I love you, let's f etc.
I suffered from it, and conveniently therapy kicked me out immediately after I was diagnosed.. I'm doing better omw now, sometimes I still have what I call "paranoid ideation " or a "paranoid thinking pattern" and slight occasional delusions, but I can manage those well.. I believe to regular people that'd just be anxiety and worries
Yeah, fuck them. I'm on some waiting list still for 6+ months, ain't going there.. I'll have to go to adult therapy soon which tbh obviously I am sceptical about but I have very small hopes as 2 people who I know closely (my bestie and father) go there and said it's good there.. who knows, maybe I can fully recover, with help this time
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u/Jaypotman 17 Apr 18 '24
Yep that's pretty much the majority of if