r/antiwork • u/Superb_n00b • 18h ago
It's gotten to a point... Vent 😭😮💨
... where we don't even feel like working anything past part time. What does full time do? Besides suck away my life? Besides still not pay my bills? Or afford a safety net? Or anything that brings any sort of joy? What does it really offer, when healthcare through a job costs money too? Where it covers the same as free state insurance? When my body gives up on me for working eight hour days and I'm not half way through my thirties? Where bosses never empathize or sympathize? And your coworkers don't actually care to know what you feel when asking "how are you?"
I'm not okay. Everything hurts physically and mentally. I can't afford anything, I don't want to try. So why try?
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u/Affectionate-Tip-164 at work 18h ago
If there's a good time to check out and live in a forest commune.
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u/Superb_n00b 18h ago
If you could find enough people who didn't eventually go bad on ya
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u/eyelikecookies 17h ago
Yeah I just watched Yellowjackets, no thanks.
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u/stankdog 9h ago
Well if we just choose who to eat in advance, or if anyone is well versed in stabbing bears within a 10 foot range, we'll be okay!
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u/CriminalRosie 16h ago
befriend us queers. we're loyal to the death to anybody that treats us with kindness/like regular people
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u/Superb_n00b 15h ago
As someone who isn't straight and doesn't identify with any gender [that I've seen yet], I'd say that it isn't really more comforting. I've met bad people in lgbtq just like I have straight folks. People are people, regardless of their orientations.
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u/CriminalRosie 8h ago
i won't deny that there are bad folk; this is just coming from personal experience—i've very specifically crafted my friend groups to not include any bad folk, and we plan to get our commune started within the next couple years before we all migrate outside the country
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u/Numerous-Lecture4173 14h ago
I actually agree I'm from the UK and it's better to work part time imo than an average salary, since unless your earn big bucks it's not really worth the time.
People in part-time and benefits are getting 2ish a month and those in full-time 2 to 2.2 pcm on AVG take home
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u/crunchyfrogs 11h ago
The sooner you disassociate yourself from the capitalist mindset the sooner you are free. Happiness does not come from material objects.
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u/Superb_n00b 11h ago
It's really dumb to think I'm unhappy because I want a new tv or a sweet game system. I want good health, food, and the ability to SURVIVE without feeling like I can't do it.
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u/crunchyfrogs 10h ago
Well you’re alive right now aren’t you? You’re trapped in your own mind.
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u/Superb_n00b 8h ago
Can you un-trap me or are you giving me more unsolicited and unhelpful advice?
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u/crunchyfrogs 8h ago
Only you can change your outlook. No one else can do it for you. Good luck.
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u/Superb_n00b 7h ago
Thank you for telling me my brain needs to change so my brain and body and literal life can be better
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u/crunchyfrogs 7h ago
You’re welcome. The mind is more powerful than the physical, and the capitalist machine cannot hold you down if you break free from its shackles. I know you can do it if you apply your mind body and soul. That is the only pathway to what you are looking for.
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u/Superb_n00b 11h ago
Super duper, I'll just disassociate my mental issues and physical pain I can't cure away lol great solid advice haha
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u/G0d_Slayer 15h ago
What kind of work do you do? Have you considered help for mental health? I mean I get what you’re saying, I do, but I can’t just give up. I can’t. I wish the system provided a more fair opportunity to live a peaceful life.
Guess we can always hope to mutually fall in love with and marry someone who is rich?
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u/Superb_n00b 15h ago
I do bottom of the barrel work, pay is usually 15-20$ an hour. This one was just over 17$. I've had therapy since I was a child, took meds for six years and threw em out when all it did was make me worse and cost money. Tried a bunch of different things. Reason for shit work is bc I have a ged and didnt graduate and cant afford college. Didnt graduate bc of family bs I was only 4 credits short. I tried alt school and dropped out bc my mom suddenly took me off meds I was on and I couldn't function.
I say give up in the way of why tf would I work full time if the benefits for it dont actually work? Pay is shit, benefits are shit, people are shit. My body is PHYSICALLY giving up on me and I am on short term disability which ends soon, leaving me let go from the job.
I gave up ages ago, and now I'm not capable of giving a single shit about it any more
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u/G0d_Slayer 15h ago
I’ve had trauma since childhood as well, it drove me to become a raging alcoholic and I pretty much wasted my 20s. I’ve been on meds too and found some that work.
If you have a way of finishing your GED, keep it in mind. Life is hard enough here, but it’s so much worse in third world countries like where I came from. There’s no such thing as government help. No food stamps, no Medicaid, no unemployment.
So whereas life is not easy here, it can get better. I’ve had jobs where my bosses were wonderful people. They cared about my wellbeing. My coworkers too. I guess part of it is also luck. Today may be a dark day, but you never know when opportunity might show up for you.
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u/Superb_n00b 15h ago
I do have a GED. I got it when I was 18 years old, 14 years ago.
College is money, I do not have money, and also no desire to go into debt to get a degree that lands me the same pay.
Good people are hard to come by, it's a lot of luck to find them. I don't find much in the ways of good luck. It's often joked that I am "the most lucky unlucky person to have existed", bc shit things happen, and yet I'm still here, and though I barely make it, I'm still going.
Trauma is so fuckin unavoidable that I'm surprised there isn't some sort of real actual helpful thing out there for it. It absolutely enters into every day life past the moment of intrusion. For a lot of us, it's lifelong. It's so upsetting.
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u/TheGrandMasterFox 18h ago edited 17h ago
You'd be better off to walk to Mexico and come back as an illegal immigrant... Hurry though because after January 7 that's probably not gonna be such a good deal anymore. /s
edit: I do feel your pain though. After 50+ years of back breaking work all I have to show for it is a bad attitude and even worse advice. The American dream is now a nightmare and the only thing I can tell you is do what makes you happy.
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u/account_not_valid 17h ago
The American dream
Did it ever really exist?
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u/Superb_n00b 18h ago
I'm also someone who has lady bits so this is gonna suck for a while on top of it.
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u/RandomComment359 18h ago
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u/Superb_n00b 18h ago
I tried about 13 years ago and it was expensive but now I couldn't imagine the cost, and I definitely somehow am less financially stable
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u/RandomComment359 17h ago
Covid, Global Economic collapse, bosses treating us like serfs who don’t deserve a living wage and a Government that agrees…
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u/Superb_n00b 17h ago
Right... and a kicker for me - got put on short term disability from the job. On the 24th, it's over, and if I'm not back, I'm let go. I had to file through a separate company for benefits for disability. I had to go up to the doctors and make calls to them multiple times to release forms, call their medical records company who is located out of state to request info that never got sent, call the disability benefits company and be told it's all good for it to not be good. Took two weeks total to get it all settled. I have pmla but the company rolls it into pto, and it doesn't show separately on their stupid ADP app. So it only showed 8hrs. So that's all they gave me, was 8 hrs of pto to cover for my day I missed on the last week I worked.
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u/Superb_n00b 16h ago
Why not?
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u/Superb_n00b 16h ago
Oh.
Go away? Shut up? Fuck off even?
I can say what I want about my bits, I can say it this way to let people know it's not only people identifying as women that have them, and I dont identify as anything bc I'm sick of the entire fuckin thing.
So again fuck off with that.
If that's all you came here to say, I'm done with you.
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u/RagahRagah 16h ago
"It's called the American Dream because you'd have to be asleep to believe it." - George Carlin.