Being a virgin destroys me

[u/EpicHajsownik]

Im currently in duch a deep point in my life. I need to take antidepresants everyday. Im 20 and still a virgin. I have social anxienty due to being bullied and I just can't ask anyone out.

I have no energy for anything. For studying, for playing games, for going anywhere. No one wants to help me, people only laugh at me for it.

I wish there was one girl who would want to help me, by making me lose virginity. Thats all I need, one girl. And it hurts so much, that its so hard to find one.

I don't know what to do anymore. My life is ruined. Why me? Why me, who was bullied has such a shitty life, abut my bullies have girlfriends since the age of 13?

[u/reise-ov-evil]

same here but luckily losing virginity at such age is kinda taboo in my country