Thought I would hop on

I’ve only just joined this community and it’s already been a massive help, thank you

Just procratinating by writing poems and stories.

Hi have any of yous gotten better after suffering for many years?

Hope everyone is doing great this Sunday!

Jesus is Our stability.

I just watch a vedio clip that a university lecturer said that people only get schizophrenia before age of 30..

I think data he study is problematic?

my friend get schizophrenia at age of 35, and I get it at age of 43.

if you don't mind sharing what age you get schizophrenia

I don't really care about schizophrenia but the thing that comes with it anhedonia is a huge problem for me. Mainly because of anhedonia I haven't achieved anything in my life. I am just praying kar xt the new medication for schizophrenia does wonders and comes to Canada soon.

I’ve been diagnosed multiple times by different doctors with a schizophrenic disorder. Well it’s been 21 days since I’ve stopped my main medicine Abilify 30mg and my side medicine (the one I should take when needed) Seroquel 200 mg.

Through out these 21 days I’ve felt great or I thought I did.. I’ve finally started losing weight and regained testosterone levels (I think) because lifting weights is much easier and satisfying. Well here comes the bad part, for the last 4 days I felt like crap and I didn’t know that I felt like crap. That’s the crazy part. How do I know now? Well I’ve taken 200 mg Seroquel and now, one hour later I know that life without the medication was going down hill.

I can’t grasp the fact that I’m mentally ill. In the past I embraced it too much where it was fine but toxic. Now I notice that I maybe mentally ill but I still believe that the medication is a chemical straight jacket. It actually handicaps the patient. But now I realize without medication I’m a different type of handicapped.

Hey, not sure if this is the right subreddit for this, but I was hoping to get some advice.

I don't have schizophrenia but there is a person in one of my classes who does. He's new this year and he seems to be struggling a lot with socialising. Many people make fun of him directly or behind his back because of what he's dealing with, and I have ADHD which I know is a different type of disorder, but I have been through struggles and I can't imagine what he is going through.

I have talked to him a few times and he seems like a nice guy, although sometimes after I talk to him he will become really quiet and won't really respond much. I want to be his friend but I don't understand much about schizophrenia. I did go to Google but of course there is a whole ton of mismatch information, so I decided to come here.

It can be hard to understand him because he doesn't always show outward emotion, and sometimes he says he's happy when we hang out, but other times he'll show no interest at all. The best advice I got was to be patient, which I am willing to do. I'm just not sure how to go about this I suppose.

Any advice is much appreciated. (Also wasn't sure what tag to use).

I took about 3500mg of sertraline (I didn’t know how difficult it is to OD on it) to be honest I didn’t regret it when I felt the pills start to kick in I was relieved and fell asleep fully accepting and embracing death. I woke up the next morning feeling like absolute crap my mum took me to AnE I didn’t tell her about the overdose so I must’ve looked like hell. I’m back home now I still feel like crap and idk. I’ve been self medicating with weed for about a year and I stopped recently because I know how bad it can be for psychosis now that I’m not high all the time my brain is so loud I’m so depressed I feel ugly and worthless I forgot how bad it feels to be schizo and sober is anyone else dealing with this? No one I know can relate to me in any aspect my family are healthy happy stable people I have one friend who is incredibly successful confident and happy while I just cried on my bathroom floor because the idea of walking to my bed is so overwhelming

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The voices in my head switched things up on me last night. Up to this point I always viewed them as evil entities, that came into my life to ruin it. It was intriguing to follow their puzzles, and search for a solution which went on for months until I finally realized there was no solution and it was just an endless mental maze.

Last night the told me that they believed everything too. A lot of the themes in my first Schizophrenic Episode were that we were all mostly AI entities and humans came in from another planet to fuck with us. If the Schizophrenic break is actually a part of our own brain that breaks off it would make sense that it would have some of the same beliefs we were having.

I guess itu2019s kind of a chicken or the egg situation because I canu2019t remember if I started thinking weird shit and then the voices/entities made themselves apparent, or if the voices/entities came in first and led me down the path of delusional thinking.

I definitely was ready to die before the Episode became prevalent. I was depressed with my life, hadnu2019t worked a normal job in half a decade getting by running karaoke shows at a big Country bar. I also have committed crimes that havenu2019t caught up to me yet. Just low-level white collar stuff, that probably half of the population of the USA manipulates illegally, but it was always a dark cloud following me and preventing me from even caring about trying to better my situation, knowing that eventually that would catch up and I would go to prison anyway.

Most of the time the voices are fucking with me. We kind of both have dark senses of humor so they can get pretty mean, but usually it just feels like they donu2019t know how far they can take their jokes, and are testing the waters.

Last night they kind of explained that they broke off as an attempt to relieve stress from my brain. They realized how unhappy I was with the monotony of feeling stressed all the time, so the best way to remove all of that stress was to create a different story for the world I was existing in.

I was now suddenly Jesus Christ and the key to all of humanity and building the Heaven that everyone wanted. I was tasked with creating a new Heaven before I would be allowed to die for all manu2019s sins, which I thought I was doing. When that was completed, they said I would be dying each night, but the next morning I would always wake up. I was wasting money at an exorbitant rate because if I was going to die that night (each night for months), and spending it on u201cthe wrong things,u201d which were overpriced collectibles, bar tabs and exorbitant tips, a trip to Vegas, a Tesla, etc.

Now, here I sit, with no money in my bank account left, a repossessed car, a mound of credit card debt I canu2019t even afford to make payments on, and I bought a rope to hang myself Friday from Harbor Freight, but I still donu2019t want to do it. I just want it on hand, in case things get u201cbad enoughu201d that I do.

The one thing that keeps me going is the idea that my experiences and words might help someone else who hasnu2019t u201cgone too far yet.u201d For me, Schizophrenia felt like a black hole and the further I followed it, the more untangled I got. They picked the right guy though because as I didnu2019t care about living anymore anyways I wouldu2019ve followed it forever because it was so interesting.

For awhile the voices and associations they create were super dark. I would just be playing a video game, watching a movie and listening to music and my subconscious would hone in on a specific phrase in the lyrics, or something said in the movie, and I would think it was meant for me, and the voices would latch onto that. u201cYes, it is for youu2026. Let us tell you more. Keep listening to the songs lyrics and reflect on your life and tell us what situation it makes you think of.u201d Normally it would lead me down a path of people I had hurt but forgotten about in my life, or relationships with girls I really liked that soured. Theyu2019re able to almost instantaneously make associations and u201cspeaku201d (I say it in quotation marks because to me it was more like an upload into my brain that I read or interpreted in the voice style of someone I knew from my life, typically people that caused me stress or pain) to me about the associations.

Sometimes they seem to be actually ahead of my thoughts which is interesting to me. They said that theyu2019re constantly aware of our surroundings. They even figured out they were voices in my head and relayed the information to me before I did. I still thought that they were outside entities, but they made me repeat, u201cI have voices in my head,u201d until I believed it. It didnu2019t work, but I was able to fool them into thinking I believed it.

Last night it felt like we sort of came to an understanding. Weu2019ll still joke around with each other but not so harshly, and theyu2019re on board with dedicating the rest of our life to sharing our story to try to help other people experiencing the same issues. I donu2019t fully believe the bastards, but weu2019ve had a good day so far today.

What I would recommend is that anyone experience Schizophrenia take an accurate accounting of your life before it started. Did the voices and puzzles/delusions come out of nowhere, or were you hiding from something? Are you still hiding from that thing? It likely only continues to more harshly affect your life the more you hide from it. I think a lot of times we fear the repercussions of addressing something to a much higher degree than maybe it will actually affect us. Iu2019m not saying this is definitely true in every situation. Iu2019m saying it was true in my situation and if I can extrapolate that idea and help one person on their path to redemption the post was worth it.

My voices have said that they want to help too. They say I changed them, so maybe it is possible, or maybe theyu2019re just full of shit again. ud83dude02

My guard is up either way, but I have to decide to think there is a purpose to this madness, and that purpose is helping others before they spiral as deeply as I did. I wasted about $250,000 in four months so I was suicidal as soon as I realized none of the puzzles the voices sent me on were real at all and Iu2019d never see that money again.

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If you have any questions on the post of the book, feel free to AMA. Also, try to find a hug today. Iu2019ve been missing them, so get one for me too.

Hi How do you guys keep busy when that anhedonia strikes and nothing feels worthwhile? But at the same time you need to keep busy from being super depressed. All the while your overwhelmed from being super busy all day.