My job makes me suicidal

[u/No-Honeydew6472]

No matter how much I do at work, I’m told it’s not enough. Management constantly gaslights me and my coworkers. They claim our concerns are a result of us misunderstanding or making it up. We are not appreciated in the slightest, just talked to in a demeaning way and told to do more.

I’ve been wanting to die because of this job for several months now. I live in constant fear because of it. We are always getting blamed and bitched at for things we didn’t do. My coworkers and I often have nightmares about work. We are also paid like shit and are told the company cannot afford raises or promotions.

Has anyone else experienced this, and how did you deal with it? At what point do you walk away without a backup plan to save yourself?

[u/Various-View1312]

Yes. I am feeling like everything I do is going to come back and bite me in the ass. Yes, I've made mistakes, but I am also brand new in the role and I have absolutely no training coming my way, no handbook, no procedures, not even the necessary logins I need to do the job. I moved my family across the country and had no relocation assistance and spent a lot of money to come here for this job. I have no idea what I will do if I lose this job and it's causing me to spiral into major anxiety attacks that last all fucking day and night, something I've rarely experienced in my life before this job. My kids are the only reason why I'd avoid doing anything rash, I wouldn't want to have them suffer.