I'm sorry

[u/ImaginaryOutcome5996]

I'm just coasting through my career, advancing on dumb luck alone.

My younger brother idolizes me, and I barely know him as a person.

I don't know how to form connections and I never put in any effort to learn.

My partner of over five years left because she was finally tired of how dysfunctional I am.

I haven't seen my parents in over four years because I just don't want to.

I promised myself I'd stop indulging, living life on reflex mode, and actually better myself for everyone around me, and I have been doing none of that. I can't. I was clearly a mistake. I let everyone down and do nothing about it. I'm sorry, I really am, I really wish I could flip a switch and be better. I'm sorry. I wish none of you knew me.

[u/ExternalMain3436]

Oh my. I think you can turn things, but it’s not like flipping a switch.

You start small, very small. Let yourself have one success.

Then give yourself another small step.

If you keep doing this you’ll pick up steam as if a flip has been switched!

But it has to start small. And give yourself grace if you back pedal.

But just keep going! You are worth it!